Mind.currentState

Am not ok. There is this something going within this little mind...on and on... and I don't know why... One moment it's so stable and the next moment it is at utter chaos... And surprising enough, now there is anger and intensity attached to it... Feel like kicking everyone at times... feel like destroying myself other times... ever since i came to this alien land, this strange thing is happening.... definitely it is not home sickness... i wish things get clear sooner... i don't want to simply come out of it.... i want to come out of it consiously...so that next time this shall not show its ugly face... i am getting stupid by the day... ufffff..... am being proved contrary to the beliefs i held... i am no better than the slush... but i do know my choices... the lotus or the slush... oh dear one, as i let you seep through me, make me flower... please...