Wednesday, July 26, 2006


Swamis Namath and Lokanetra...Awesome people they are... Posted by Picasa

(From left to right) Lokanetra, me, Namath and Luke...  Posted by Picasa

One unforgettable night...

At the end of the last Isha program in Hyderabad, we invited the Swamis who conduct the classes to dine at our house. I simply cannot forget that night. Just now I happened to get the snaps that I decided I must write this post right away, 2.30 am in the morning :-)

The occasion was graced by the presence of three lovable people...

Swami Lokanetra, who conducted the class for me...One awesome person who has become one of my dearest acquaintances over the last one year.

Swami Luke, originally an American, now a Swami at the Ashram in Coimbatore...He was a volunteer when I did my first programme...He has evolved into a Swami within an year :-)

Namath, originally a Lebanese, she has chosen to become a teacher...One simple term by which I can address her "Angel"...She was narrating her experiences so beautifully that we went on till 4 am...A theater artiste by education, she was describing everything with so much joy and intensity that I simply cannot forget her and the night. Speaking with her also added a good amount of positive vibrations in us... I could go on to write so much about that one night, but I don't have the energy to do it right now...

Friday, July 14, 2006


Anotehr grp foto on Ravi's bday (The yellow T...aka SOJAX) Posted by Picasa

Group foto... Posted by Picasa

Shaa Bhoo Three (to decide who'll gift the b'day baby)...Me won it!!! Posted by Picasa

Happy b'day JP... Posted by Picasa

Friday, July 07, 2006

WTF ???

Note: I am in a real nasty frame of mind... The ensuing contents will be pure rubbish...Read at your own discretion...

I am totally clueless...What do I want to do...It is at this time period when some major changes are happening...at least in lives of my friends...the girls are getting committed/married...the guys are switching jobs, pursuing higher studies, trying to find themselves a partner... Well these are minor peeves...

But the major cause of my current commotion is, what really do I want to do? Suddenly I find that of the few things I am capable of doing, nothing is making sense to me...Writing code, pursuing an MBA...nothing is making sense... As if these are not enuf, that damned fone call...forget it, I am not gonna speak about it...

Looking at the problems around me sets me thinking...take the case of Vidharba farmers...India is definitely good at intellectual power...If there are so many intelligent people around, with at least a scintilla of humanity, why do these suicides occur...Is it because I chose to remain smug in my own stupid cocoon that I created for myself...is that what every person is doing...there definitely should be something that can be done to address issues like this...when i see these things, i crave more to work for something worthwhile touching people's lives rather than right some crap code...

So is social service is what I want to do...No again...I want money too...But my work itself should be in such a way that it enables me to affect life.

No, I am not getting anywhere...I don't know what I want...I simply don't know...

Or rather, let me put it this way...why am I working...it is simply because of the same reason i did so many things in the past...why did I go to school, why did i go to college...simply bcoz that's wat the society did...soceity defined a timetable for life...and i followed it religiously...society respected education and money, and here i am...chose anna univ coz the topper is supposed to do that...chose comp soc as that's supposed to earn u a high pay job...chose MS coz that's supposed to be THE place for CS engineers...

It feels totally disgusting to see that I am doing nothing more than executing a timetable set by "I-dunno-who" or "rather no-one-knows-who"...

I've started questioning so many things that hav been taken for granted....why do u marry...why do u work...why do u do so many n other things...

i know that the more i question, i don't get anywhere...it all boils down to a simple answer: "I don't know"... At this point, all that I am going to do is to simply accept...NOT the society, but the simple fact that I don't know...I choose to rather remain confused rather than living in stupid conclusions...

Huh, feels better now...

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

I want...I want...I want them all

Two years into the industry...

I felt I was complaining always, but not knowing what I wanted...Just took sometime to come up with this list...

The kind of ideal work I'll do should

1. Be enjoyable or to be more specific, it should be intellectually satisfying...
Like solving an interesting pbm...less of coding from my side but more of intellectual input from my side...to put it in a nut shell, I love solving a problem but not implementing it.
2. Pay me good (should be around the industry high standards)
3. Not pressurize me (I hate tight timelines).It should give me sufficient time to work
4. Gives me a proper work life balance. I am not ready to work more than 10 hrs a day
5. Make some sense to me...
For eg I would be happier solving a mathematical problem rather than testing the "about me" menu in some super famous software, say MS Word.
6. Have flexi timings...I'll come and go whenever I want to...But I'll ge tthe work done.
7. Provide oppurtunities to work in more than one country...Yes, I want to explore the world and my purse is weak...

Are those greedy...I care not...