Yippeeeeeeeeeeee...... 100th post.
Merry Christmas and a very happy New Year to one and all !!!
A Snapshot of me: Getting Things Done
3 years ago
Friday, December 22, 2006
My singing attempts
These were a few of the songs I recorded amateurly some 6 months back. Didn't get to upload them at all. I thought I would improve on them and then upload. But I don't think I'll find time in the near future to do so. I listened to them and thought it wasn't that bad to ignore. So here I am, uploading them :D
http://www.switchpod.com/users/p_ramasamy/feed.xml has the list of all songs for download.
To listen to the indivudal songs, visit http://www.switchpod.com/p6629.html
I've uploaded 5 songs in total.
1. Ilaya nila pozhigiradhu
2. Kalyana Maalai
3. Poove Sempoove
4. Raasaathi unnai
5. Vellai Pookal
Listen to them and let me know your comments.
Thanks for putting up with my voice ;-)
http://www.switchpod.com/users/p_ramasamy/feed.xml has the list of all songs for download.
To listen to the indivudal songs, visit http://www.switchpod.com/p6629.html
I've uploaded 5 songs in total.
1. Ilaya nila pozhigiradhu
2. Kalyana Maalai
3. Poove Sempoove
4. Raasaathi unnai
5. Vellai Pookal
Listen to them and let me know your comments.
Thanks for putting up with my voice ;-)
...
Anto has written a great piece at http://antorocks.blogspot.com/2006/12/lover.html
Do check it out.
A small story...
As I woke up, I didn't know where I was... It was so cold. It was killing me. I could see a labyrinth of creepers on the ground. Everywhere I saw, it was just the creepers. I crawled under one of them. It was warm. As I got more layers of the creepers above me, it was more comfortable. I could see the entire population cozily covered up in the twines. I thought I wasn't lost. I was happy.
I grew. With every small movement, the twines started hurting. Each one was twined in a peculiar pattern. As long as everyone moves with in the permitted range, the twines didn't hurt. But beyond that, it tore people apart.
I didn't quite understand this unless I saw a person fly above the maze. How could he fly, I wondered.
He showed me something that I didn't know was with me. He pointed to something on my shoulders. He said that it was called the "wings". Due to lack of use, they had become vestigeal. He taught me to strengthen it.
The sun is shining. The cold, I bother no more. I am able to see my wings. I now know that I am a bird. I only know. But I want to experience that I am a bird by flying. Yes, I want to fly. I want to cut open these twines and fly. I have started flapping hard. I shall continue to. One day I shall fly above this labyrinth into the endless space.
Thanks to the One.
Do check it out.
A small story...
As I woke up, I didn't know where I was... It was so cold. It was killing me. I could see a labyrinth of creepers on the ground. Everywhere I saw, it was just the creepers. I crawled under one of them. It was warm. As I got more layers of the creepers above me, it was more comfortable. I could see the entire population cozily covered up in the twines. I thought I wasn't lost. I was happy.
I grew. With every small movement, the twines started hurting. Each one was twined in a peculiar pattern. As long as everyone moves with in the permitted range, the twines didn't hurt. But beyond that, it tore people apart.
I didn't quite understand this unless I saw a person fly above the maze. How could he fly, I wondered.
He showed me something that I didn't know was with me. He pointed to something on my shoulders. He said that it was called the "wings". Due to lack of use, they had become vestigeal. He taught me to strengthen it.
The sun is shining. The cold, I bother no more. I am able to see my wings. I now know that I am a bird. I only know. But I want to experience that I am a bird by flying. Yes, I want to fly. I want to cut open these twines and fly. I have started flapping hard. I shall continue to. One day I shall fly above this labyrinth into the endless space.
Thanks to the One.
Thursday, December 07, 2006
How am I gonna thank u...
Yup, how am I going to thank A.R.Rahman for what he has given in the form of "Guru". Guru songs have been perennially running 24*7 ever since it released.
I want to write a detailed review on each song, just not finding enough time. Will soon write one.
Rahman, you are simply awesome.
I want to write a detailed review on each song, just not finding enough time. Will soon write one.
Rahman, you are simply awesome.
Friday, November 10, 2006
The traitor...
As I was talking with my good friend, I was telling him how my perceptions about almost everyhting has changed within the last couple of years. It was then I realised how much taking a snapshot of the state of mind helps when you want to look at the path of the mind. One thing is for sure. This mind is a great traitor.
What it touts at one moment as THE THING to pursue, a few moments later, it simply ditches it only to go after some other thing. Let me recount the things that mattered to me the most in the last 20 odd years of "eating-doing various levels of insane things-sleeping" routine. What follows looks pretty stereotypical to me. Anyways, i feel like recording this and hence this crap post.
In the early school going days, it was the madness for first rank. Even if I miss the rank in only one out of the 10 tests held every year, that one night I would sleep crying. Amma used to find it out from the long face I used to have following such disasters (that was what it used to be). It was after the 10th board exams that this desire for rank 1 lost a bit of its' hold.
Next came the desire to get into the best engineering colleges available. The pursuit began. And when it was done, the next attraction took possession of my mind. I always had this notion that one needed to study only till 12 th and then freak out (thanks to the tons of tamil movies that wallow with college and the "so-called-love" life). Yeah, the next attraction was the fairer sex. I still remember the air I used to have around me when walking into college during my first semester. It used to say "I am a COLLEGE STUDENT and I am here PRIMARILY to sight-adichufy". This attraction was something that took over my mind when I was probably in my 10th standard (when the adoloscence started showing its existence), but I held it suppressed for fear of losing out in the competitive exams.
Then the mind wandered away to point out that a "top notch job" was the thing to pursue. After sometime, it again started grousing that management studies should boost the resume better. For some strange reason I don't feel like writing anymore. So cutting it short. Other things which it said were the most important things are: great career recognition, world-wide recognition/innovation, money, power...
The cacophony hasn't stopped. But I have ear sponges using which I can comfortably ignore the noise...
What it touts at one moment as THE THING to pursue, a few moments later, it simply ditches it only to go after some other thing. Let me recount the things that mattered to me the most in the last 20 odd years of "eating-doing various levels of insane things-sleeping" routine. What follows looks pretty stereotypical to me. Anyways, i feel like recording this and hence this crap post.
In the early school going days, it was the madness for first rank. Even if I miss the rank in only one out of the 10 tests held every year, that one night I would sleep crying. Amma used to find it out from the long face I used to have following such disasters (that was what it used to be). It was after the 10th board exams that this desire for rank 1 lost a bit of its' hold.
Next came the desire to get into the best engineering colleges available. The pursuit began. And when it was done, the next attraction took possession of my mind. I always had this notion that one needed to study only till 12 th and then freak out (thanks to the tons of tamil movies that wallow with college and the "so-called-love" life). Yeah, the next attraction was the fairer sex. I still remember the air I used to have around me when walking into college during my first semester. It used to say "I am a COLLEGE STUDENT and I am here PRIMARILY to sight-adichufy". This attraction was something that took over my mind when I was probably in my 10th standard (when the adoloscence started showing its existence), but I held it suppressed for fear of losing out in the competitive exams.
Then the mind wandered away to point out that a "top notch job" was the thing to pursue. After sometime, it again started grousing that management studies should boost the resume better. For some strange reason I don't feel like writing anymore. So cutting it short. Other things which it said were the most important things are: great career recognition, world-wide recognition/innovation, money, power...
The cacophony hasn't stopped. But I have ear sponges using which I can comfortably ignore the noise...
Sunday, November 05, 2006
The happy family...
The happy family of bus no.10 during Dhyan Yatra 2006.
(Standing in the bus footsteps): Esha, Meenakshi
(Standing on the ground):Venkataramanan, Vimal, Manohar, JP, Arun, me, Kalpana, Jayashree, Mallika, Shyamala, Bala, Aditya, Kumaran, Utkarsh and Vishal.
(Squatting in the front):Bhoopesh, Anto, Prasanna, Netaji, Siva, PandiMurugan.
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Just for laughs
Certain mail conversations are absoultely funny. Following is one which happened among my close friends circle.
Note: Only for people who can understand Tamil...
A mail had come with the subject "To all who know Dharma". Basically here Dharma referred to a person.
Machi 1: For those who know Dharma`nu potta udanae "Dharmathin vaazhvuthanai soothu kavvum, Dharmam marubadiyum vellum" range`ku think pannikittu open pannaen ...atleast for those who knows Dharma anna`nu pottu irukalaamda machi ...
Machi 2: Adhu seri...Nee koodadhaan..."Dharmathi vaazhvuthanai soothu kavvum"la soodhu-nu pottu irukalaamda... ;)
Rest of all Machis: ROTFL
Note: Only for people who can understand Tamil...
A mail had come with the subject "To all who know Dharma". Basically here Dharma referred to a person.
Machi 1: For those who know Dharma`nu potta udanae "Dharmathin vaazhvuthanai soothu kavvum, Dharmam marubadiyum vellum" range`ku think pannikittu open pannaen ...atleast for those who knows Dharma anna`nu pottu irukalaamda machi ...
Machi 2: Adhu seri...Nee koodadhaan..."Dharmathi vaazhvuthanai soothu kavvum"la soodhu-nu pottu irukalaamda... ;)
Rest of all Machis: ROTFL
Friday, September 22, 2006
Break!!!
This post is for two reasons:
1. To break the long absence of posts in this space
2. I am taking a much anticipated break from my work. I am going to the Himalayas as part of the Isha organized Dhyan Yatra from Sept 28th to Oct 11th.
Himalayas has always fascinated me. Its' enormity, the scenic beauty, the snow...everything about it has always tickled my interest. When the oppurtunity to go came, I simply couldn't resist it. That too, when it is under the guidance of some of the most profound people who have made all the sense in my life, can I even forsake the chance...
Another interesting fact is that 8 of my collegemates are also coming in this trip. That would make it similar to an IV, 2 years post college.
Have to get the necessary items this weekend...winter wear, shoes, etc.
The spirit is high.
The zeal is spurting up.
Himalayas....here I come !!!
1. To break the long absence of posts in this space
2. I am taking a much anticipated break from my work. I am going to the Himalayas as part of the Isha organized Dhyan Yatra from Sept 28th to Oct 11th.
Himalayas has always fascinated me. Its' enormity, the scenic beauty, the snow...everything about it has always tickled my interest. When the oppurtunity to go came, I simply couldn't resist it. That too, when it is under the guidance of some of the most profound people who have made all the sense in my life, can I even forsake the chance...
Another interesting fact is that 8 of my collegemates are also coming in this trip. That would make it similar to an IV, 2 years post college.
Have to get the necessary items this weekend...winter wear, shoes, etc.
The spirit is high.
The zeal is spurting up.
Himalayas....here I come !!!
Thursday, August 24, 2006
From the other perspective...
I opened my eyes... What is this I am seeing!!!I really cannot imagine this...I really cannot...I really cannot...
As I sat there watching helplessly, the reality begun to sink in. I took a look around slowly.
I was locked up in a 6 feet by 3 feet rectangular cell. I could see a huge array of such cells. The cells were meshed...even the bottoms were meshed. I couldn't even stand properly. Of the options I had, I could either stand or sit. Period.
There were so many of others too. As I sat I noticed my legs were very weak. They had attenuated due to continuous lack of usage. As I was trying to think why I hadn't used my legs for long, something warm dripped on me. Was it some shower?
Yuck, it smelled weird. It took sometime for me to realize that it was the outburst of someone's bladder. If you were thinking that I was spared of some feces on me, you are wrong. The place started stinking. But I could do nothing but sit in this hell. I can only expect death now, for nothing could be better...a peaceful painless death.
As I was sitting, I noticed there were females too. Most of them were pregnant. Ahh, I was better off I thought. It should be more than hell for them to be sitting in these cells with babies within them. I could hear a few in labour pain and soon they delivered their babies. Were angels born in hell?
Soon one of the guards came and took away the newly born ones from their helpless moms. Worse, another guard clad in a white, with some medicine in his hand, started injecting the unconceived ladies with some shots. My neighbor told they were being made pregnant the artifical way. The very rules of Nature are totally non-existent here!!!
Unable to bear any of these anymore I started shouting. As I was rebelling, I saw my cell getting opened. I was pulled out by my legs. As I was taken by my legs to somewhere, I could see the dead bodies of my fellow mates hanging without any skin. I also saw the newly born ones, all asleep, getting packaged to elsewhere.
I was brought to a huge plank of wood that reeked of blood smell. There was a gargantuan guard standing there and what did I see in the guard's hand. A white shining knife!!!!!
Ahhh....Death at last...This was what I was waiting for... I expected him to chop of my head so that I can die in just a flash. He slowly took his knife.
Let me take my last breath...I took a long breath with closed eyes.
Crrrrkkkkkkkkkkkkk...
Am I dead...As I opened my eyes, I realised my neck was slit but head not severed. I slowly saw that I was getting drowned in a big drum of water.
As I closed my eyes for the last time, I muttered
"Oh God, even death, after such a torturful life, is the worst anyone can get. Why...Why...Why the hell did you send me here as a Chicken......"
Note 1: This post is NOT yet another crap post of mine. It made a lot of sense to me...to look at the scene from the hen's perspective for a change.
Note 2: I am not advocating vegetarianism or vegan-ism. Just sketching the flow of my mind through the eyes of a chicken.
As I sat there watching helplessly, the reality begun to sink in. I took a look around slowly.
I was locked up in a 6 feet by 3 feet rectangular cell. I could see a huge array of such cells. The cells were meshed...even the bottoms were meshed. I couldn't even stand properly. Of the options I had, I could either stand or sit. Period.
There were so many of others too. As I sat I noticed my legs were very weak. They had attenuated due to continuous lack of usage. As I was trying to think why I hadn't used my legs for long, something warm dripped on me. Was it some shower?
Yuck, it smelled weird. It took sometime for me to realize that it was the outburst of someone's bladder. If you were thinking that I was spared of some feces on me, you are wrong. The place started stinking. But I could do nothing but sit in this hell. I can only expect death now, for nothing could be better...a peaceful painless death.
As I was sitting, I noticed there were females too. Most of them were pregnant. Ahh, I was better off I thought. It should be more than hell for them to be sitting in these cells with babies within them. I could hear a few in labour pain and soon they delivered their babies. Were angels born in hell?
Soon one of the guards came and took away the newly born ones from their helpless moms. Worse, another guard clad in a white, with some medicine in his hand, started injecting the unconceived ladies with some shots. My neighbor told they were being made pregnant the artifical way. The very rules of Nature are totally non-existent here!!!
Unable to bear any of these anymore I started shouting. As I was rebelling, I saw my cell getting opened. I was pulled out by my legs. As I was taken by my legs to somewhere, I could see the dead bodies of my fellow mates hanging without any skin. I also saw the newly born ones, all asleep, getting packaged to elsewhere.
I was brought to a huge plank of wood that reeked of blood smell. There was a gargantuan guard standing there and what did I see in the guard's hand. A white shining knife!!!!!
Ahhh....Death at last...This was what I was waiting for... I expected him to chop of my head so that I can die in just a flash. He slowly took his knife.
Let me take my last breath...I took a long breath with closed eyes.
Crrrrkkkkkkkkkkkkk...
Am I dead...As I opened my eyes, I realised my neck was slit but head not severed. I slowly saw that I was getting drowned in a big drum of water.
As I closed my eyes for the last time, I muttered
"Oh God, even death, after such a torturful life, is the worst anyone can get. Why...Why...Why the hell did you send me here as a Chicken......"
Note 1: This post is NOT yet another crap post of mine. It made a lot of sense to me...to look at the scene from the hen's perspective for a change.
Note 2: I am not advocating vegetarianism or vegan-ism. Just sketching the flow of my mind through the eyes of a chicken.
Friday, August 18, 2006
Amusing anecdotes...
Anecdote #1: Date: Aug 15th, 2006
Venue: The house in Kondapur where a few of us were lazing around.
The story:
I finally decided I'll go to the huge shopping mall in the heart of the city where I had to take delivery of the trousers I had given for alteration.
One of my friends quipped "Dei, don't go there. Don't you know it's independence day today. You are not supposed to go to places of mass gathering as it might be a risk"
Independence, is it real?
Anecdote #2: Date: Aug 18th, 2006
Venue: My cubicle in my office
The story:
Just now got the mail from the party co-ordinator. We are having an annual party tomorrow.
The post script of the mail was amusing. It read
"Please don’t drink and drive and use our transport facility."
What a piece of advice!! But what else can that person also do... If she is going to say don't drink, sure she's going to get fire-mails. But sure this was amusing...
Huh!
Venue: The house in Kondapur where a few of us were lazing around.
The story:
I finally decided I'll go to the huge shopping mall in the heart of the city where I had to take delivery of the trousers I had given for alteration.
One of my friends quipped "Dei, don't go there. Don't you know it's independence day today. You are not supposed to go to places of mass gathering as it might be a risk"
Independence, is it real?
Anecdote #2: Date: Aug 18th, 2006
Venue: My cubicle in my office
The story:
Just now got the mail from the party co-ordinator. We are having an annual party tomorrow.
The post script of the mail was amusing. It read
"Please don’t drink and drive and use our transport facility."
What a piece of advice!! But what else can that person also do... If she is going to say don't drink, sure she's going to get fire-mails. But sure this was amusing...
Huh!
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
It's Rahman for you...
I am loving this YouTube pretty much. I had missed A.R.Rahman's interview in Sun TV which was telecast on I-day. One day later, I am finding it in YouTube, thanks to Rahman fans.
One cannot but wonder how much down to earth this person is...
Watch it out for yourself...
Part-1 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_OyOqrGvok0
Part-2 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r8PpIc1940o
Part-3 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sR9_rWsDlxk
One cannot but wonder how much down to earth this person is...
Watch it out for yourself...
Part-1 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_OyOqrGvok0
Part-2 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r8PpIc1940o
Part-3 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sR9_rWsDlxk
Thursday, August 10, 2006
New York Nagaram lyrics...
Was searching for this and bumped on this..
http://arrahmaniac.blogspot.com/2006/08/thanimai-thanimaiyo.html
Enjoy!!!
http://arrahmaniac.blogspot.com/2006/08/thanimai-thanimaiyo.html
Enjoy!!!
Friday, August 04, 2006
Jillendru oru Kadhal...
One of the favorite things I like to write about is A.R.Rahman :) It is no wonder that I always go gaga about him, for all the innovations he does in the music industry. The latest release of ARR is Jillendru oru kaadhal (now known as Sillendru Oru Kaadhal)...There are 7 songs in the album... When I first heard the album, a few songs caught on instantly with me. But with repeated hearing, I liked all of them...I'll have to listen more deeply to give a detailed review of each song...Here goes a "teaser-review" of the album...
1. "Majja majja"
This is a sensual song... Shreya does a wonderful job... She's got a sexy voice ;-) This is one song which I didn't like on first hearing... But it has grown on me after a few hearings. I liked the instrumentation of the song pretty much.... The strings were awesome.
Instant love: The line where Shreya sings "Jillllllllunu oru Ginger beer thaa..."
2. "Maricham"
ARR has found yet another new voice in Carolisa and she really rocks. It is high on electronic sound content and it's a tough song to sing, especially the scale at which she sings. The song begins at a rapid pace and tapers off to a slow end. This is has grown on me very well.
Instant Love: The glass breaking sound used at places...Particularly the one used in the beginning few lines of the song.
3. "Munbe vaa"
What a song!!!! I simply love this melody...The song has a nice pace to it and melodious at the same time. And Shreya does great justice to the song with her voice. Naresh iyer is too lucky to get such songs. This song is definitely going to take him places.
One of my definite picks of the album.
Instant Love: "Rangoli" hum by the chorus... Too good!
4. "New York"
I am mad about this song... Sung by Rahman himself... I can't ask for more... A melancholic piece where the protaganist rambles about his loneliness... Vaali has done a splendid job through out the album and this song is clearly the pick in terms of the lyrical content... The images are instantly created in the listener's mind... So beautiful are the words!!!
Another of my picks in the album.
Instant Love: Thalaivar's voice, the strings...
5. "Jillendru oru kaadhal"
A typical Jazz song... I am generally not interested in Jazz... And I didn't like this song when I first heard it... But on a few more hearings, I have started tapping automatically... A jolly number... Tanvi has stretched herself out to sing this one...Nice job.
Instant Love: The cat sounds littered over the song :)
6. "Kummi adi"
Liked this on the very first hearing... A fast, heavy percussion folk song sung at a marriage. Naresh Iyer does a superb job in this song alnong with Swarnalatha... On a side track I am hearing Swarnalatha after a looooong time and she comes back with a bang.
Yet another personal pick
Instant Love: Kunjaramma's voice, the harmony
7. "Machakaari"
Shankar Mahadevan has been used to his full potential... I really can't imagine the way he has sung this... A superb fast paced number...Vasundra Das is equally good too in this song. Her voice is real sexy as well.
Also a pick...
Instant Love: "Nannaana nannanaa" humming of Shankar (he does it with a groan...ossum), the strings and rhythm are different and catchy.
Go...Listen to it now!!!
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
One unforgettable night...
At the end of the last Isha program in Hyderabad, we invited the Swamis who conduct the classes to dine at our house. I simply cannot forget that night. Just now I happened to get the snaps that I decided I must write this post right away, 2.30 am in the morning :-)
The occasion was graced by the presence of three lovable people...
Swami Lokanetra, who conducted the class for me...One awesome person who has become one of my dearest acquaintances over the last one year.
Swami Luke, originally an American, now a Swami at the Ashram in Coimbatore...He was a volunteer when I did my first programme...He has evolved into a Swami within an year :-)
Namath, originally a Lebanese, she has chosen to become a teacher...One simple term by which I can address her "Angel"...She was narrating her experiences so beautifully that we went on till 4 am...A theater artiste by education, she was describing everything with so much joy and intensity that I simply cannot forget her and the night. Speaking with her also added a good amount of positive vibrations in us... I could go on to write so much about that one night, but I don't have the energy to do it right now...
The occasion was graced by the presence of three lovable people...
Swami Lokanetra, who conducted the class for me...One awesome person who has become one of my dearest acquaintances over the last one year.
Swami Luke, originally an American, now a Swami at the Ashram in Coimbatore...He was a volunteer when I did my first programme...He has evolved into a Swami within an year :-)
Namath, originally a Lebanese, she has chosen to become a teacher...One simple term by which I can address her "Angel"...She was narrating her experiences so beautifully that we went on till 4 am...A theater artiste by education, she was describing everything with so much joy and intensity that I simply cannot forget her and the night. Speaking with her also added a good amount of positive vibrations in us... I could go on to write so much about that one night, but I don't have the energy to do it right now...
Friday, July 14, 2006
Friday, July 07, 2006
WTF ???
Note: I am in a real nasty frame of mind... The ensuing contents will be pure rubbish...Read at your own discretion...
I am totally clueless...What do I want to do...It is at this time period when some major changes are happening...at least in lives of my friends...the girls are getting committed/married...the guys are switching jobs, pursuing higher studies, trying to find themselves a partner... Well these are minor peeves...
But the major cause of my current commotion is, what really do I want to do? Suddenly I find that of the few things I am capable of doing, nothing is making sense to me...Writing code, pursuing an MBA...nothing is making sense... As if these are not enuf, that damned fone call...forget it, I am not gonna speak about it...
Looking at the problems around me sets me thinking...take the case of Vidharba farmers...India is definitely good at intellectual power...If there are so many intelligent people around, with at least a scintilla of humanity, why do these suicides occur...Is it because I chose to remain smug in my own stupid cocoon that I created for myself...is that what every person is doing...there definitely should be something that can be done to address issues like this...when i see these things, i crave more to work for something worthwhile touching people's lives rather than right some crap code...
So is social service is what I want to do...No again...I want money too...But my work itself should be in such a way that it enables me to affect life.
No, I am not getting anywhere...I don't know what I want...I simply don't know...
Or rather, let me put it this way...why am I working...it is simply because of the same reason i did so many things in the past...why did I go to school, why did i go to college...simply bcoz that's wat the society did...soceity defined a timetable for life...and i followed it religiously...society respected education and money, and here i am...chose anna univ coz the topper is supposed to do that...chose comp soc as that's supposed to earn u a high pay job...chose MS coz that's supposed to be THE place for CS engineers...
It feels totally disgusting to see that I am doing nothing more than executing a timetable set by "I-dunno-who" or "rather no-one-knows-who"...
I've started questioning so many things that hav been taken for granted....why do u marry...why do u work...why do u do so many n other things...
i know that the more i question, i don't get anywhere...it all boils down to a simple answer: "I don't know"... At this point, all that I am going to do is to simply accept...NOT the society, but the simple fact that I don't know...I choose to rather remain confused rather than living in stupid conclusions...
Huh, feels better now...
I am totally clueless...What do I want to do...It is at this time period when some major changes are happening...at least in lives of my friends...the girls are getting committed/married...the guys are switching jobs, pursuing higher studies, trying to find themselves a partner... Well these are minor peeves...
But the major cause of my current commotion is, what really do I want to do? Suddenly I find that of the few things I am capable of doing, nothing is making sense to me...Writing code, pursuing an MBA...nothing is making sense... As if these are not enuf, that damned fone call...forget it, I am not gonna speak about it...
Looking at the problems around me sets me thinking...take the case of Vidharba farmers...India is definitely good at intellectual power...If there are so many intelligent people around, with at least a scintilla of humanity, why do these suicides occur...Is it because I chose to remain smug in my own stupid cocoon that I created for myself...is that what every person is doing...there definitely should be something that can be done to address issues like this...when i see these things, i crave more to work for something worthwhile touching people's lives rather than right some crap code...
So is social service is what I want to do...No again...I want money too...But my work itself should be in such a way that it enables me to affect life.
No, I am not getting anywhere...I don't know what I want...I simply don't know...
Or rather, let me put it this way...why am I working...it is simply because of the same reason i did so many things in the past...why did I go to school, why did i go to college...simply bcoz that's wat the society did...soceity defined a timetable for life...and i followed it religiously...society respected education and money, and here i am...chose anna univ coz the topper is supposed to do that...chose comp soc as that's supposed to earn u a high pay job...chose MS coz that's supposed to be THE place for CS engineers...
It feels totally disgusting to see that I am doing nothing more than executing a timetable set by "I-dunno-who" or "rather no-one-knows-who"...
I've started questioning so many things that hav been taken for granted....why do u marry...why do u work...why do u do so many n other things...
i know that the more i question, i don't get anywhere...it all boils down to a simple answer: "I don't know"... At this point, all that I am going to do is to simply accept...NOT the society, but the simple fact that I don't know...I choose to rather remain confused rather than living in stupid conclusions...
Huh, feels better now...
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
I want...I want...I want them all
Two years into the industry...
I felt I was complaining always, but not knowing what I wanted...Just took sometime to come up with this list...
The kind of ideal work I'll do should
1. Be enjoyable or to be more specific, it should be intellectually satisfying...
Like solving an interesting pbm...less of coding from my side but more of intellectual input from my side...to put it in a nut shell, I love solving a problem but not implementing it.
2. Pay me good (should be around the industry high standards)
3. Not pressurize me (I hate tight timelines).It should give me sufficient time to work
4. Gives me a proper work life balance. I am not ready to work more than 10 hrs a day
5. Make some sense to me...
For eg I would be happier solving a mathematical problem rather than testing the "about me" menu in some super famous software, say MS Word.
6. Have flexi timings...I'll come and go whenever I want to...But I'll ge tthe work done.
7. Provide oppurtunities to work in more than one country...Yes, I want to explore the world and my purse is weak...
Are those greedy...I care not...
I felt I was complaining always, but not knowing what I wanted...Just took sometime to come up with this list...
The kind of ideal work I'll do should
1. Be enjoyable or to be more specific, it should be intellectually satisfying...
Like solving an interesting pbm...less of coding from my side but more of intellectual input from my side...to put it in a nut shell, I love solving a problem but not implementing it.
2. Pay me good (should be around the industry high standards)
3. Not pressurize me (I hate tight timelines).It should give me sufficient time to work
4. Gives me a proper work life balance. I am not ready to work more than 10 hrs a day
5. Make some sense to me...
For eg I would be happier solving a mathematical problem rather than testing the "about me" menu in some super famous software, say MS Word.
6. Have flexi timings...I'll come and go whenever I want to...But I'll ge tthe work done.
7. Provide oppurtunities to work in more than one country...Yes, I want to explore the world and my purse is weak...
Are those greedy...I care not...
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
Oru chinna doubt...
I was listening to this song "Yaaridamum thondravillai idhupol" from "Thotti Jaya". Of late Harris Jayaraj has been experimenting by using more than 2 voices for the same person in the same song. "Uyire en uyire" from the same movie is an excellent example where Anuradha sriram and bombay Jayashree give their voice to the heroine.
So, coming to the song in question, at approximately 3:46 from the beginning, (the second charanam), I had the doubt. Harini is the one who has been credited for the song. But carefully listen to the song at 3.46 when the word "Munnooraandu ondrai" comes. I am almost sure that "Munnoorandu" is that of Bombay Jayashree's voice. The word "Ondrai" is started by Bombay Jayashree but closes with Harini's voice (excellent belnding by HJ).
Probably HJ had it recorded in different tracks and may be the story was like this.
He first had BJ sing the song and then mixed her track and Ramesh vinayagam's track. Then probably felt it wud be better with Harini's voice...Had Harini sing in a separate track...Superimposed it in the already merged track and probably made a merging error...
Anyways I found this amusing enough. Can you people also listen to it and update me with your analysis...
So, coming to the song in question, at approximately 3:46 from the beginning, (the second charanam), I had the doubt. Harini is the one who has been credited for the song. But carefully listen to the song at 3.46 when the word "Munnooraandu ondrai" comes. I am almost sure that "Munnoorandu" is that of Bombay Jayashree's voice. The word "Ondrai" is started by Bombay Jayashree but closes with Harini's voice (excellent belnding by HJ).
Probably HJ had it recorded in different tracks and may be the story was like this.
He first had BJ sing the song and then mixed her track and Ramesh vinayagam's track. Then probably felt it wud be better with Harini's voice...Had Harini sing in a separate track...Superimposed it in the already merged track and probably made a merging error...
Anyways I found this amusing enough. Can you people also listen to it and update me with your analysis...
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
Drenched...TOTALLY
Amidst the tight schedules I am having at office, I am forced to write this post. Though I liked Ilayaraja's Thiruvasagam very much, I didn't happen to hear all the songs. Today, for the first time, I heard "Muthunarchaamam" song (hope I got the word correctly). One word to summarize the experience: Peerless!!!
The composition was so awesome that I was simply pulled into it. I was just living the moment...and that's no common occurrence! Blessed is Ilayaraja to produce such soul stirring stuff and blessed are we to be able to hear what the Maestro has to offer.
I am not trying to say this is the best song of the album, but just that it struck me real hard. The other songs are equally peerless as well. One small hitch I have is my inability to understand the words which would have taken the experience to an altogether different plane:((
Nevertheless, the web comes in handy. One such translation for Thiruvasagam I found is
http://www.tamilnation.org/sathyam/east/thiruvasagam/tvasagam01.htm
Thiruchitrambalam.
p.s: Chummaava sonnanga "Thiruvaasagathukku urugaadhar oru vaasagathukkum urugaar"nu...
The composition was so awesome that I was simply pulled into it. I was just living the moment...and that's no common occurrence! Blessed is Ilayaraja to produce such soul stirring stuff and blessed are we to be able to hear what the Maestro has to offer.
I am not trying to say this is the best song of the album, but just that it struck me real hard. The other songs are equally peerless as well. One small hitch I have is my inability to understand the words which would have taken the experience to an altogether different plane:((
Nevertheless, the web comes in handy. One such translation for Thiruvasagam I found is
http://www.tamilnation.org/sathyam/east/thiruvasagam/tvasagam01.htm
Thiruchitrambalam.
p.s: Chummaava sonnanga "Thiruvaasagathukku urugaadhar oru vaasagathukkum urugaar"nu...
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Onions...
Tag: State of mind as on 4.40 pm, 16th May, 2006
The peeling has begun...
The pungent stench is evident...
The tear glands are in intense action...
The pain.
As layer by layer goes off...
As The Hand meticulously works...
The pain...
Oh where is it?
The pain is history.
The layers shall peel by peacefully.
The Hand knows what to do.
I shall simply watch.
The peeling has begun...
The pungent stench is evident...
The tear glands are in intense action...
The pain.
As layer by layer goes off...
As The Hand meticulously works...
The pain...
Oh where is it?
The pain is history.
The layers shall peel by peacefully.
The Hand knows what to do.
I shall simply watch.
Bifurcating my posts...
Haven't been blogging for quite a while...Mainly bcoz things I wanted to write about were those that weren't meant for public consumption...
So I have decided to categorize my posts..Here afterwards, posts that have a tag attached that connotes something totally abstruse means that I have written that for my personal consumption, which, in turn means, I may not respond to queries on that post... These kind of posts are written just to take a snap shot of what I think, believe, etc so that I can turn back to it whenever I want to...
So I have decided to categorize my posts..Here afterwards, posts that have a tag attached that connotes something totally abstruse means that I have written that for my personal consumption, which, in turn means, I may not respond to queries on that post... These kind of posts are written just to take a snap shot of what I think, believe, etc so that I can turn back to it whenever I want to...
Friday, April 21, 2006
Women ???
I was having a chat with my school friend after a real long time yesterday. As discussions meandered on different topics, he was telling me about an incident with a girl which got him pissed off a little bit. At that point, he said
"Women...Woe men"
I really enjoyed that piece that I thought of putting it here...
"Women...Woe men"
I really enjoyed that piece that I thought of putting it here...
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Singing debut...
Attempted at singing...Thanks to Anand prabhu for the software suggestions.
Song: Sendhaazham poovil...
Inspiration: One song that bowled me over the very first time I heard it...Peerless lyrics and an amazing composition.
Forgive me for the mistakes (I know many of them will be there)...
PLEASE give feedback and I would love to hear them (Critiques are highly welcome...that's how i can improve)
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Song: Sendhaazham poovil...
Inspiration: One song that bowled me over the very first time I heard it...Peerless lyrics and an amazing composition.
Forgive me for the mistakes (I know many of them will be there)...
PLEASE give feedback and I would love to hear them (Critiques are highly welcome...that's how i can improve)
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Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Monday, March 27, 2006
Thursday, March 23, 2006
A day...
Wanted to scribble something...Yesterday was speaking with Vivek (Pondi) after a real long time. It was nice... gossiping about everyone.
One thing I should mention here is the talk we had about his placements. He's jus now graduated out of IIM-A. As is the norm in any conversation with an IIM grad, the talk meandered to the huge salaries they get. It was then I realised that these guys are working really insane working hours. Vivek was having a 14 hour a day (5 day week) schedule while some of his friends have a 16 hour a day (5 day week). I wud term that as cruel work hours.
Anyways, it seems my IIM friends have found themselves a job to their satisfaction. Let's see how much they like their career...All the best folks.
And I am gonna watch RDB this weekend (hopefully).
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Hyd folks, if u r reading this and haven't yet had a toblerone milk shake or the kit kat milkshake in Ohri's Banjara, it's time for u to grab one... It is really amazing. I am going to have bets in the future in terms of these milk shakes only. Ossum drinks (not for the calory conscious ppl though:-)
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Am listening to the Kasto Mazaa Hai... song from Parineeta. An amazing tack. Try listening to it.
And another amazing piece can be heard here http://provokedthemovie.com/site.html
ARR has weaved a magic score for the page... a really haunting piece. Kudos ARR.
One thing I should mention here is the talk we had about his placements. He's jus now graduated out of IIM-A. As is the norm in any conversation with an IIM grad, the talk meandered to the huge salaries they get. It was then I realised that these guys are working really insane working hours. Vivek was having a 14 hour a day (5 day week) schedule while some of his friends have a 16 hour a day (5 day week). I wud term that as cruel work hours.
Anyways, it seems my IIM friends have found themselves a job to their satisfaction. Let's see how much they like their career...All the best folks.
And I am gonna watch RDB this weekend (hopefully).
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Hyd folks, if u r reading this and haven't yet had a toblerone milk shake or the kit kat milkshake in Ohri's Banjara, it's time for u to grab one... It is really amazing. I am going to have bets in the future in terms of these milk shakes only. Ossum drinks (not for the calory conscious ppl though:-)
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Am listening to the Kasto Mazaa Hai... song from Parineeta. An amazing tack. Try listening to it.
And another amazing piece can be heard here http://provokedthemovie.com/site.html
ARR has weaved a magic score for the page... a really haunting piece. Kudos ARR.
Friday, March 17, 2006
Insanely Intoxicated...
I am INSANELY INTOXICATED...Never have I been so happy and what more, happy for no reason at all. Normally human happiness is mortgaged to external situations, but the last one year has increasingly taken me towards inner happiness...and now, I have started to experience exalted heights. How you may ask? It is all because of Isha.
Just 2 days back I completed Samyama: the supposedly toughest course under the eyes of the greatest soul I have ever seen, Dearest SADHGURU.
Man, for the dosage he gives, the pain encountered during the preparations was nothing but a mean trifle. I don't have words to put my state as language is handicapped when it comes to experience.
I'm mad with joy...
So are my fellas who attended the course...and definitely, I have to thank a few people in the absence of whose help this samyama would have been made very daunting and difficult: The Madhas* comprising of Raghu, Arun and Bhoobi; The Kondas* comprising of Arvind Sharma, JP, Vimal, Shyam and Naresh...
Thanks u dear ones...
If you feel life has something more to it apart from Eating-Sleeping-Copulating-Dying, the moment has come...TRY ISHA NOW (http://www.ishafoundation.org)
*Madhas: The guys put up in Madhapur
*Kondas: The guys put up in Kondapur
Just 2 days back I completed Samyama: the supposedly toughest course under the eyes of the greatest soul I have ever seen, Dearest SADHGURU.
Man, for the dosage he gives, the pain encountered during the preparations was nothing but a mean trifle. I don't have words to put my state as language is handicapped when it comes to experience.
I'm mad with joy...
So are my fellas who attended the course...and definitely, I have to thank a few people in the absence of whose help this samyama would have been made very daunting and difficult: The Madhas* comprising of Raghu, Arun and Bhoobi; The Kondas* comprising of Arvind Sharma, JP, Vimal, Shyam and Naresh...
Thanks u dear ones...
If you feel life has something more to it apart from Eating-Sleeping-Copulating-Dying, the moment has come...TRY ISHA NOW (http://www.ishafoundation.org)
*Madhas: The guys put up in Madhapur
*Kondas: The guys put up in Kondapur
Sunday, March 05, 2006
And the answer is...
Lord Rama...As we all know Rama has a VIL (bow) in his hand and it is a well known fact that "Where there is a will (vil) there is a way...
:D
p.s: Some of u might be searching to hit me, but pal, it's all in the game...By the way, Naresh got it correct and hence is accorded with the JUNK MASTER award.
:D
p.s: Some of u might be searching to hit me, but pal, it's all in the game...By the way, Naresh got it correct and hence is accorded with the JUNK MASTER award.
Friday, March 03, 2006
Hmmm...At last...
Really long time I came this side...Reasons being Samyama preparations, Office work and the latest find "Orkut"...This Orkut thingy is a "fertile flirting field" ;-)
Wanted to post something...A puzzle, for a change...
Post ur answers along with the LOGIC/Reason for ur choice in the comments and I'll get back with the answer in the next post.
Neo was switching between the Matrix world and the real world...In one such transit, he keyed in one of the digits of the telephone number because of which he was transported to the transient zone, a fine layer between the Matrix world and the real world. All he could see was white everywhere and in the distance were 5 doors. Each door had a different picture. The pictures were that of mythological figures. They were, from left to right, that of : Rama, Atlas, Buddha, Virgin Mary and Hercules. Only one door has the way to his destination and all the other doors will destroy him immediately. Neo has to choose the correct door. Which is the correct door that will save Neo's life?
Wanted to post something...A puzzle, for a change...
Post ur answers along with the LOGIC/Reason for ur choice in the comments and I'll get back with the answer in the next post.
Neo was switching between the Matrix world and the real world...In one such transit, he keyed in one of the digits of the telephone number because of which he was transported to the transient zone, a fine layer between the Matrix world and the real world. All he could see was white everywhere and in the distance were 5 doors. Each door had a different picture. The pictures were that of mythological figures. They were, from left to right, that of : Rama, Atlas, Buddha, Virgin Mary and Hercules. Only one door has the way to his destination and all the other doors will destroy him immediately. Neo has to choose the correct door. Which is the correct door that will save Neo's life?
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
This day that age...
I had scribbled some crap around the same time last year here http://ramsrules.blogspot.com/2005/02/love-is-in-air.html
But this last one year has been a great revelation in terms of the popular notion of the term "love" (The popular notion is the one you find it in every cinema or the other). And surprisingly, I've seen almost every cinematic story in real life in the last one year...from
But this last one year has been a great revelation in terms of the popular notion of the term "love" (The popular notion is the one you find it in every cinema or the other). And surprisingly, I've seen almost every cinematic story in real life in the last one year...from
- an early forced marriage
- to sabotaging attempts to stop a marriage
- to eloping
- to breaking a long relationship
- to falling in love after having hated the very thoughts of sharing the life with someone else
- to falling in love the conventional way
- to ...............
Hmmm...Let me see what's in store this year...
Love all...
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
Totally random rambling...
From where...to where...and why?
What I beheld is no longer me. What I behold shall cease to be me.
But still I strive to define with those ephemeral definitions.
The cliche is all that remains: Nothing but change is constant.
Finding neverland??? A distant spark...is that the beacon of Truth?
Is it all an illusion? What do I want from anywhere?
Are dreams the present...Does awakening come only at sleep?
An animal this moment...Human the next? Will the transcending happen?
The "silent" time shall answer.
What I beheld is no longer me. What I behold shall cease to be me.
But still I strive to define with those ephemeral definitions.
The cliche is all that remains: Nothing but change is constant.
Finding neverland??? A distant spark...is that the beacon of Truth?
Is it all an illusion? What do I want from anywhere?
Are dreams the present...Does awakening come only at sleep?
An animal this moment...Human the next? Will the transcending happen?
The "silent" time shall answer.
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Anecdotes from my Mahabaleshwar trip
[The four people squatting in the right corner are the ones involved in these anecdotes: [from right corner in the order of occurrence of faces]: Bhoobi, Vimal, JP and me.
I was suffering from food poisioning and had a serious bout of vomiting on the 2nd day morning. I was talking with JP. Sharma was also suffering from food poisoning.
Me: Dei JP, Sharma edho powerful maathrai vechrukaanaamae...Naan adha eduthakalaamnu irukken.
JP: Avanukku dysentry da...
Me: Oh that's serious...Naanaachum nadu roadla vaandhi edutha vaaya roadlaye kazhuvikkalaam.
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The talks were still around my state of health.
Me: Dei, enna panninaa vayithla irukadhellathayum full-aa vomit pannidalaam?
Vimal: Soap solution kudicha ellam velila vandhudum.
Me: Loosaada nee...Adhu constipationukku dhaandaa...
Vimal: Illada, vomit ku dhaan use pannuvanga
Bhoobi: Vimal, adhu constipationku dhaanda
Vimal: Illada, naan soap solution kuduthu parthirukken
Bhoobi: Appo andha patient thalai-keezha paduthirundhruppaar!
p.s: One other guy was doing pranayam during this conversation and it goes without saying he had a hard time controlling his breath as well as laughter !
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