Random things...

There are a few days, when I wake up, I have this feeling in my "Anahata"... It's a certain feeling that brings about a certain depressing emotion for the entire day... When someone is sad, I believe it is this activity in the Anahata that makes people exclaim "heavy in heart"... While I am able to see clearly that this is what is happening and when I'm aware, I'm able to go beyond that uneasiness, but during the moments of unawareness (which is in plenty), it easily sucks me up... Reminded of how Sadhguru says that everything within oneself is just a chemistry (joy, misery, etc)... today is one such day...

The last 2 days were a blast. Sai Suresh and Gokulnath had come from SFO for the Tulip Festival... The weather was just fine and it was lots of fun... tulip fields, flowers, pictures, "Taboo" games, the drives, the frisbee, the double rainbow, california pizza kitchen, cheesecakes...

An idiot of my relative has landed himself in to some serious trouble. The lack of even a bit of remorse for what he has done is such a disgrace. He and his family are one such kind of people who eat, breathe and sleep money... While I can't but pity his plight, his insolence and lack of humanity and the position they are planning to take in the coming days only speaks volumes of their inner state. I can only see more trouble coming their way. If they can't learn out of such a big incident in their lives, may be they need more life-times for any transformation to happen. BTW, this incident, it is a real drama, just like in the movies... And this incident, happening at this point in time, may not be so ideal a situation I would have wanted, but things have happened... Let's see...

Fear: I thought I didn't have any... But I can see as they surface... There was this medical test for which they had to take some blood samples. And I saw this fear surface up. Once I became aware, it dissolves in a moment... It was funny and at the same time, I could see how what they say in the IE class was practically true. There's one other fear now...

The sea is calm, beautiful and serene...
The pearls are below, radiant and inviting...
The moment is opportune, unfettered the diver,
Ohh, how to ruffle the placid waters...